Killer Thoughts

I was watching the story of Laci Peterson today before I went into work today. For those of you who don't know she was an 8 month pregnant mom who went missing in Modesto, CA Dec 24th, 2002. In the end it was found to be that her husband Scott Peterson was having an affair and had killer Laci.

I guess I'm lucky in the way that the EX finaley spoke up about how he felt about me and walked away rather than killing me. You never know when someone will get to that point. Especialy when he had been living with these feelings for years prior to asking me to marry him, as I am told by Jeremy. When some one is holding in that kind of lie for so such a long time it can drive you to do things you wouldnt normaly. I found out that he felt marring me would fix problems I had no clue was there because they were never communicated to me. When your feeling stuck and desperate to get out and dont have the courage to speak up you can be driven to horrific things. I have to say Im glad he fianly found the guts to speak up, and not just because he didnt end it with murder, but also becasue I didnt realize how he was hindering me from living life. I was wound so tight in tryingto keep the EX happy I ddint worry about my own happiness.

You never know when some one is at the point where rather than speaking up they will just turn to murder. I watch the first 48 a lot, its one of my favorite shows, and I wonder all the time what makes a person get to that point where its the best option in there mind to just kill for any reason.