Monday, March 3, 2008

Life keeps sucking

I cant do it. I just cant do it. I don't know how its gonna happen, but i cant do it. I need help, and I have no one here to turn to. It sucks to be here all alone with just me to rely on, but i am excited to be standing truly on my own no matter how hard it is. Maybe one day Ill find what i deserve and be happy cuz lord knows i am struggling.


Its looking like I might have to give up my dog. My love. I don't know how Im gonna take care of her. Shell be alone up to 10 hours a day. I feel thats cruel I need to give her a better life than that. Its hard to deal with all this. She is my heart and I just cant do it but some times we have to be selfless and not selfish and Im not sure what to do. I need help. What should I do about my dog? i will be working 2 jobs to support myself so she will have a lot of alone time. If she gets hurt I am the only one to pay for it. Can I afford that on my own!!! What to do??? I made a commitment to her. Would she be better off in a no kill kennel in a cage or pin for hours all day or in my apartment air-conditioned and with toys and a bed. How do i know who ever adopts her wont use her for fighting and or testing?

Any Ideas/

Anja

2 comments:

jimbizzle said...

If you can't take care of her then I want Jade. She's my dog too. Please no putting her up for adoption.

Rita said...

Damn, this isn't helpful at all, but I can tell you that I had to face the same thing . . . even down to giving up the dog.

The one word of encouragement I can give you is that you CAN do it. You ARE doing it, just by making it through another day, taking things one step at a time.

Change is hard as hell, no doubt about it. I know you will do what is best for Jade.